Give us more time

We are staying with my parents for Christmas, and have been here for about a week and a half. They just moved here in the summer,and the basement is full of boxes from the move that haven't been opened. In my spare time between playing with Zoe, eating Christmas cookies and studying, I've been hunkering down and going through boxes that were from my room in the last house.

As a kid, I made many photo albums and time capsules. I've kept all my letters from grade eleven on- that is 8 years worth of mail!!I have artwork and other school projects from when I was younger.

I've been in a funk these last couple of days, and couldn't articulate exactly why, but I think I figured it out this morning. My daily Bible readings have all been in Revelation and I can't help but feel the urgency and seriousness of it. I have been focused on a miserable thought that there really isn't a point to saving my old journals and albums, because whose going to be around to read them? Will life just zoom by and before I know it, without having made an impact or done anything lasting,I'll be 75? It sounds very dramatic,which, it is, but I do feel this way, talking to people about how children grow up so fast,and wondering about my ancestors, and how most of everything they were and did has been forgotten.

Usually I like to imagine heaven, and don't look at earth-life with much hope. But now that I have a family, and many dreams and ideas for the future, it is depressing to think that our time is so limited!I realized I can do something about it. I can pray.

I really do love this world, with all of it's brokenness and potential. I really do want to live to see grandchildren, and pass down traditions and stories. I really do want Zoe to have a huge full long life. And so I pray: give us more time. Work through us to make your kingdom come. Hold back on your judgement. Flood us with compassion, still. Give us joy and peace and redemption and love and healing. Let us continue in this fight, here. Stay with us, Jesus, your presence invading dark places. Continue building us up in love and truth.