I don't think of myself as a very joyful person...and God convicted me recently to remember I am his child and that it is something to be very very happy and joyful about.Little things have been happening that show me God has planted a deep joy in my heart. One of our teachers brings her dog into the class and whenever I see her(the dog) she runs up to me and licks me and gets all excited, ready to play. My teacher says her dog has a special recognition for my joyful spirit. The Pastor's wife at church said her kids really like me- that I'm a joy magnet. When I get home after school I get so happy to be around David's gentleness and humour. I wish it translated so that I could deeply know and experience it.
It is hard to live in Vancouver. All the things I hear on the bus about bloodletting ceremonies, gay men breaking up marriages to sleep with the man, all my homeless friends I see everyday, and the shameful thought inside my head when I am exhausted; I hope I don't see them today. I cry on my walk home from church nearly every sunday, partly from the relief of seeing families and couples that love eachother, and partly because so much of what I am experiencing here at this point in life is challenging.
I think God will have much to say to me this Christmas about joy.
3 comments:
Elli, you are such a soft, beautiful, joyful girl and it is clear that you feel deeply.
You are so in-tune with who you are as a person, you really know yourself and your emotions. It's a beautiful, beautiful thing.
"Our present sufferings are not to be compared with the glory that will later be revealed in us."
You are so lovely, Elli.
hey what is your mailing address? Been thinking about you a lot and thought I should write you every now and then.
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